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” A Great Wagon” A Journey beyond Right and Wrong – Rumi.

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Heart


Water turns pearly.
Fire dies down and doesn’t destroy.

When I see your face, the stones start spinning!
You appear; all studying wanders.
I lose my place.

In your presence I don’t want what I thought
I wanted, those three little hanging lamps.

Inside your face the ancient manuscripts
Seem like rusty mirrors.

You breathe; new shapes appear,
and the music of a desire as widespread
as Spring begins to move
like a great wagon.
Drive slowly.
Some of us walking alongside
are lame!

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Today, like every other day, we wake up empty
and frightened. Don’t open the door to the study
and begin reading. Take down a musical instrument.

Let the beauty we love be what we do.
There are hundreds of ways to kneel and kiss the ground.

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Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing,
there is a field. I’ll meet you there.

When the soul lies down in that grass,
the world is too full to talk about.
Ideas, language, even the phrase each other
doesn’t make any sense.

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The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you.
Don’t go back to sleep.
You must ask for what you really want.
Don’t go back to sleep.
People are going back and forth across the doorsill
where the two worlds touch.
The door is round and open.
Don’t go back to sleep.

I would love to kiss you.
The price of kissing is your life.

Now my loving is running toward my life shouting,
What a bargain, let’s buy it.

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Daylight, full of small dancing particles
and the one great turning, our souls
are dancing with you, without feet, they dance.
Can you see them when I whisper in your ear?

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They try to say what you are, spiritual or sexual?
They wonder about Solomon and all his wives.

In the body of the world, they say, there is a soul
and you are that.

But we have ways within each other
that will never be said by anyone.

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Come to the orchard in Spring.
There is light and wine, and sweethearts
in the pomegranate flowers.

If you do not come, these do not matter.
If you do come, these do not matter.

In Loving Service

Christi

Bigger Healing Expansion

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I want to share a process that I have been in for years. Still having opportunities.

I live in a diverse neighborhood. When COVID came, more people moved into the homes around me. It became very crowded in their homes and on the street. More emotions and frequency of people trying to get along in tight spaces.

The polishing of keeping a loving boundary and the influence of the psychic frequency that changed here has been a strengthener, not always easy to lift and hold in peace and love. I found the places in me that were experiencing powerlessness to negativity.

If you have seen West Side Story, I’m doing a spoiler in sharing if you haven’t. Sorry. After there was the shootings of Maria’s loved ones, she encounters the young man who became wrapped up in the fight. and shot her love. He was not really in the middle of it, but was pulled into the sides in anger, then shot the person he had been told was the enemy. Families and ethnic separation, countries, streets, towns, etc., all have a sense of identity separate from others. We really feel and believe this is true. That is the design/illusion of the planet. This story was about a neighborhood. It reflects all of us inside and out.What I want to share is Maria, who saw only love, fell apart in grief and anger, took the gun from the young man, and said, ” I never knew how to hate until you taught me.” She turned the gun on him, did not shoot, then herself, did not shoot, then dropped the gun and wept. I wept when I saw this for the millionth time. Something in me remembered that moment of giving up love because all around me it seemed hopeless, hurt, abandoned, or more.. Turning the gun on someone is turning the gun on yourself. shutting off your love flow to survive. It is a beautiful offering to look inside and see how you have chosen this. No judgment, only compassion and forgiveness. We forget what we are and begin to move into separation inside as we experience this world, micro and macro. We can reclaim ourselves through awareness and compassion for ourselves, healing in Grace those places that give up or forget Love inside. Then, through those eyes, we have that for others. There is no other.

Another element of what I have been experiencing and watching is addiction. drugs, alcohol, and smoking. I am from a big family, and lots of drugs and drinking were part of my experience.. When I was 18, I was still living at home and pretty lost inside. I was partying a lot. Not present in me, nor really connecting with loved ones. I came home late one night, and ironically, I had been unwittingly drugged. I knew inside this was a turning point. When I entered my parents’ house, my Mother called out and told me to get out of her house now. This was not negotiable. My sister had attempted suicide that night and was brought home. My Mother was full to say the least.

I called a friend, and she allowed me to live with her and her family for a bit. I continued to drink too much. This was a kind person, and it was temporary. I was really hurt and upset with my Mom, and so was she with me. I have worked on my process of believing I had been abandoned and more. Just recently, Grace entered me. Addiction is something a person has to choose out of. My Mother Loved herself and me enough to do this. I look at that inside me now and I see how strong she was, but also how I had to walk this life I chose and choose to learn and strengthen my Love for me and let that lead my life. The sweetness that is coming alive in me, as I have allowed Love to lead this experience back into the Beloved I am and she is, goes beyond words. I am grateful.

Sometimes we think love is staying in the negative, or supporting the negative. What if you consider that we all have a Light that can ignite within? What if we have to turn back to ourselves in Love first? We can’t carry anyone that way. We can reflect and be a frequency of Love. They or we have to turn to the Love and field of healing to receive and expand. We are strong Love. We forget. That is okay. We are also pulled into remembrance. Love expands in us in Spirit, through Spirit, and we let go. Relax, forgive yourself. Love and allow it to reveal. It is a flow of God’s Infinite Love we are all made of.

Be grateful for those who held in Love even when it appeared to be a no, not anymore. Take a look inside and see what you reclaimed in Love, not righteousness. Give yourself the gift of a stepping stone instead of victim. Thank whoever played their part. Put the gun down and lift in Loving Light. e Gratefu lin Love to you and all involved.

You are Beloved – There is no other – Only ONE…

In Lovng Service

Christi

Freedom Within

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This is a time of expansion. We are tested every day with a sense of chaos-controlled negativity.Inside we probably find ourselves in restriction, oppression, fear, anger, frustration and more.

How do we regain our center? Our Loving creative flow?

I was with some children yesterday. One tripped and fell down, and I was pulled to go to him. His face showed embarrassment and vulnerability, shame. The frequency he sent me when he looked at me was to stay away. I did, he cried, and went to his Dad. I sent love from within to him. Then his brother was walking in front of me, and slipped, then fell, and he just lay there deciding, not quite reacting yet. There was space for me to gently help him stand up. His father asked if he was okay, and he decided he was.

My observation is that they were showing me how we all allow and promote receiving or blocking love flow in our reactions. When we let go and relax and trust, we open to being lifted and balanced in Love. It takes courage to not be in defense or shame. It’s okay to have feelings, as we grow up, we can recognize our feelings as just that. What we are telling ourselves about ourselves is inside us. We learn to comfort and calm and see the benefit of vulnerability and trust and receiving. This is how the Light gets in.

The Loving Light is always present in creative flow inside us. Keeping our hearts open and sharing in vulnerability allows clearing, and doors swing open to creative abundance. We share in this world this way. We are not isolated except inside. That is where the jail exists. We create the jail. Our life experiences hold the messages we have kept alive in us to ” survive.” Instead of Love and abundant flow. The messages were an experience of separation. We believe and believed it.

Take your power back through Love. We give it away to ego walls, shame, blame, and control through negativity, ours or others. We get our feelings hurt and shut down, try to be perfect, which is non-existent, love the one inside and the one who stumbles, falls down. Let the Loving Light lift you up and stand in your Loving creative Power. You are divine. When we want to fight, hit, or control, we block what we are seeking. This is a process.

Knowledge of this helps us use our Divine awareness to choose, take an inner Love bath, and receive. Remember, we all make mistakes and learn from them. Don’t condemn yourself or others. Consider you have a choice. This choice is that you can heal what is disturbed and open to freedom within that shows the way to create a better place inside and out to live. Live in Loving freedom. see through the heart of God.

There are layers of creation that have a frequency that we respond to. Be willing to keep getting back up in Loving support. Inside and out. Sharing with others who are also on this path can be revealing and healing.

Be open to being supported and supporting. No one does it alone. It is an inside job; your inner experience is what is running you. Those upsets are a call for help. Start by pausing in honesty, and love the one inside that is in upset or confusion. Relax, breathe, allow the love to reveal the one inside that does not know Love-Light. There is nothing to do but love and forgive yourself for forgetting you are beloved, you are Divine, and you are Love and Loved. Start with this simple process and see how it reveals and heals you into a greater awareness of flow, of safety, and creative inspiration. Your inner world will reflect to the outer.

Thank you

In Loving Service

Christi

Be – See a Light Love Filled Life

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We all have read, heard or maybe know that we are co-creating our life experience.

That being said, this life experience is our curriculum. We are Divine. When we come into this world, we forget and we begin a journey of being remembered. Remembered is a knowing that comes alive. dropping the illusions of separation. We tell ourselves negative stories from within. We keep focused on that negative story as our truth, as opposed to the Love the Light we are. The Loving Light filled life we are.

We frequency the focus, the emotions, the thoughts, the reality we are believing to be running us radiates more of the same. All humans do this. Imagine healing these place into Loving Light flow. How would it be to walk in a Loving Light reality within ?

This is possible, step by step. Illuminating your inner world. The stories, the parts of you that have been in the confusion of separation, from the experiences that told you, to fear, or to judge, or hate or lack. Carrying a sense of powerlessness to what everyone else is doing or saying. We have the power to change the frequency- language to Love. We hold this key, We can choose. This means giving up the things that support the negativity, this is journey of remembering.

The world looks and feels full of against-ness. How do we relax in Loving flow? Bring the one inside into the light and allow the Alchemy of LightLove to reveal the Divine, letting go of the story that has been holding you hostage. The language goes from negativity to Love, Kindness, Sharing , Caring, and Abundance. This is an inside job, you are important. Love does support you. God is LoveLight and you are ONE LOVE. This is a surrender. Surrender to the unknown – knowing.

The process of Loving alchemy allows what is holding you in negativity to have a voice in the Light. To reveal what is unseen to you. let it be seen in Love. Give yourself kindness and see how holding on to defense, anger and hurt has kept you there. It is a false protection, but understandable. Now is the time to see how you actually are not the things you told yourself. Let the Loving Light flow and assist you in clearing your emotions, mind and body of the repetitive habits and come alive in expansion of Spiritual Loving Light. this is what you are. ONE LOVE.

This is an experience. It goes beyond mind. I am sharing this in words. Maybe there is something in you that knows this is true and you are pulled in Love.

That is all this is about.

Be the Love you SEEK. The world will reveal that as we are ONE. The more we choose and actually move within to this, we radiate out in overflow. Touching all around us, even if we do not know what is going on.

Be the Love Light and See the Love Light Life you seek. This will keep you in a direction of Loving Flow. Co-creating from within a Life of Loving Light Abundance.

You are Beloved.

Thank you

In Loving Service – Christi

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Thanks – Giving

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Thanks – Giving

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Thank you is a constant gift that walks within us as we experience this life journey. There is always an opportunity to support ourselves with this. We all walk inside our beautiful Divine world that illuminates the presence when we pause and open to Thank you, not matter what is happening. We make ourselves available to love. There is always a gift of love, of freedom available in the Divine flow of the presence within us, we truly are ONE. Through these eyes we see the beauty, the Beloved in all. Nothing is perfect here, so we choose how we want to be within our Kingdom. This is a process of walking the road available in the ups and downs of the human experience, while always being available to the Divine Being essence we are. Thank you – Thanks Giving does exactly that.

Giving Thanks for all that is present and be open to expand and see the good in all. This means letting go. Not with holding love within and allowing Love to Lead you. Loving the disturbance within and opening to the gift of love that heals. Allowing the Divine presence to come awake and know the Beloved is present in all. We can all learn to let go to love. Even when there is negativity Pause in a gratitude opportunity and Love you in the disturbance now and thank yourself for being honest, open to loving light to this place or places inside that are holding onto the very against – ness that is being reflected. Thank you for the opportunity to heal what does not know the love, The Light. Grace is present. Freedom within is the freedom that is forever.

The ups and downs of this world are going on inside us. We came to Bring Love. Let this be our choice, we are worthy, and this will overflow in the world we walk in. All sense of need lesson or falls away and the path is clear. You are met with each step in clarity and flow. Be LOVE as that is our natural state. Resting in Love. The Heart Beat of GOD.

Have a Beautiful THANKS – GIVING week and life…

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Christi

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Free The Victim to Love

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God Morning,

I have been observing the sense of being a victim. How inside the struggle to be free seems to be determined by what others do, or say and even how money runs us. There is also being a victim to a victim. Seeing another person in need as a reason not to be happy or express love and joy, stay small so they feel okay. Maybe the need to save them so you can be free…Love.

This is all going on inside. We bounce and struggle with stories of right and wrong all depending on the others to be or do what we seek. No one is more important than another. We just give that to them inside us. What if you knew you are Divine ? You are God’s Love. How would it be to walk free inside being held in that. We have to give up our need to be separate, special over another or less than another. These are controllers. Letting go into the flow of Love. Imagine being and sharing in this world from that inside you.. This is polishing process, to love it al is to love all of you. Not in ego but, in sweet surrender to God’s infinite love.

What if we choose to take responsibility in a loving focus for our own inner fight? How would it be if we could take time to nurture and rewire ourselves within by giving up the fight and look and be the Love to the one inside who feels power is what is keeping it imprisoned. What if we can open to the Loving Light inside, breathing in and receiving?

Relax – Let go – Focus on your Heart Center, and let this breath of God breathe you as you are safely relaxing in the warmth and love of the Beloved. We can walk all day long in this contact. Remember – open to love, and relax ask and receive,, focus of what you want which is Love Freedom. This is inside. No one else gives it to you. If you depend on that you will always be in struggle wanting them to be what you want them to be so you know you are Loved and Safe.

Be that Love and Safety. Meet the polarity within you and in the world as an opportunity to heal in Love and be free. To Live a life of Love greater and greater inner attunement in Divine Flow. Love Light and Sound singing you. you will be in overflow, sharing in freedom.

We All are God’s Love – Open to this as your leader. Receive and allow. It is a choice and you have that power.

In Loving Service

Christi

Grace – Love

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You are Beloved.

These are times of challenges inside and in the outer world. What comes up in you can be very dismaying.

How do we come into compassion, understanding leading to freedom in acceptance in Love?

We all are experiencing the world inside us. Our reactions and stories create a greater friction to deal with. Start there. Be present with you in the discomfort. It is present as a message, this message is calling you to Love. If you are afraid of the discomfort, keep it simple , be the love you are seeking, It is present in you. There is no shame in the experience of upset. There is no shame in asking for another Beloved to hold in Loving to assist you. We are here to bring Love.

Start with yourself . Be available to you, do not run from what is in disturbance. Sit with you and ask for the Loving Light of God to assist you. Let what is in hurt and in separation surface in the safety of kindness, the loving Light flow illuminating the misunderstanding.

We all abandon or forget ourself to our experience of this world. Be the Peace and love you seek. Come into a greater peace through the healing Grace of God that is present in all. Do – Be the Loving to the inner wars and allow the release through compassion expansion, trusting Love. God is Your partner. God is the source of All and that is Love. A love that goes beyond the Mind, Body, and Emotions. Allow this Love to awaken and soothe these frictions to remembering you are the Beloved. You are Divine even when you forget.

Do not shame the humanity in you or others, you came to bring Love. Let the ones who are in disturbance hurt and more in you have a voice, to be seen in the loving embrace of yourself and another can be a powerful choice. Be love to all that is hard to Love. This means Love the one in you that is in challenge to Love. Let it speak and hold over and over again in forgiveness and loving . Forgive yourself for judging you. Love yourself as you forgive whatever it is in yourself that doesn’t know Love. That part of you is in the illusion and you have the power to bring peace and love to it. See the greater understanding. It will be loved into Grace. Do not dismiss these parts,. They are here for lLoving.

Forgive yourself for giving up your love because of what someone else said or did. You are Love. NO matter what consciousness shows up in me or in front of me, I am Divine and so are they. Even while there is disturbance, Love and Peace are present. There is no they, we are ONE LOVE.

This is a big and worthy practice. give it a try. It is a polishing, so do not try to be perfect. Allow the Humanity to dissolve into love, meet it over and over again in this Divine Space of Mercy – Love.

This is a tme of opportunity, take this time to generate the Love focus through your own inner healing in the Grace Field of the Christ. Be brave and share when you need support. allow the love to surface in the face of all the disturbances. You are Divine..

Trust your vision of Love and be that frequency, lean into letting go of control and allowing the focus to be in flow, in acceptance and receiving and giving. This is an intimate dance of trust in Love.

We are ONE LOVE, let’s build the field inside to overflow, like a gentle strong wind that touches soothes all.

In Loving

Christi

Expansion – Change

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Nothing is stagnant. Change is constant, inside and out.

I have been working with people over 23 years, when I say this it means I have been working with myself this entire lifetime and lifetimes. The view is always changing. I never presume I know the answer. My life has beauty in all experiences that may assist others, yet, each person has their unique view from within. This leads to a place of ONE.. Letting go of the knower and allowing the flow, the renewer in each breath, each moment is a path of Love. It is simple, Love. Love that goes beyond possesive – control – good – bad. It is Love present flow., receiving – giving Acceptance and observation – expansion of Being in the flow. No mental or emotional pull. We relax into all is present and none of this is truth. Come present and allow the light loving to lead the very presence in you to lead you. This love goes beyond.. there is always etc.

Come Present right now and you will be aware of a new view. Open your heart eyes. Each moment, each day, each experience is an inner expression. Come present inside and listen, feel, and observe what you are experiencing. That is your personal relationship to what is present.

You can choose in the moment to relax, breathe and allow love to be your frequency inside, if there is bumpy expression, just accept and be present in acceptance and love. You can keep open to expansion in the places that express in retraction, fear, hurt , anger and more. Let this be an expression but, not truth. It is an experience of your humanity. Loving humanity past right or wrong, allows a new view of compassion and opportunity to alchamy in Love. Freedom within. Your view expands and you open to a creative flow inspired in Love.

Love is free, as you let go to the Beloved in you, you let go… From this place you have a higher view, seeing through new eyes to receive and share in the frequency of love. Open your Spiritual eyes. This is a choice. Let go of the mind and emotions, you become available to inspiration beyond what you know. Come present – allow the loving expression of love Light and Sound.

This quote is something to allow in the painting of you life in the earth experience.

“Everyone Discusses my art and pretends to understand, as if it were necessary to understand, when it is simply necessary to love.” Claude Monet

Just enjoy the play of receiving and allowing the letting go in Love.

In Loving Service

Christi

Outer World – Inner Love Flow

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Honesty- Be Present

Anticipating you are going to be seen a certain way. Doing things so you know you are loved. Have you ever noticed when you do these things you have a continued challenge to stay loving in you to you. You find that things are hard to keep up with. This is most likely because you have been living from the outside in. The illusion is a chase. A chase for validation, belonging, being special.

I want to offer an another loving challenge – tool. It involves being honest with yourself and others. Not in any way the harms or hurts. Honesty can be a challenge when you live in fear. the fears and hurts may be running you,, will take courage to be with see, hear, feel and open to loving truth. You are a Soul, there is no wrong, can you witness in loving?

My Loving Challenge is to allow yourself to take time and stop running from yourself, looking to belong…instead come present. There will be discomfort, but this discomfort is calling you to freedom. Come present and allow the thing or things you are avoiding to come into the light, Be present in Loving surrender to how you feel, think, behave and let go in the truth. The truth of what you keep telling yourself about yourself that keeps you in the chase, the outer world validation chase for love. It is an inside job. It does not matter how many people shower you with attention, you are still talking inside to yourself. Be present listen, and come to a place that brings a loving forgiveness for the judgments you carry on yourself and others. Those judgments keep you in separation and fear. More hiding and more sense of being out of control .you are not in control. The Loving Source is, and as you allow yourself to awaken to this through honest surrender in Love to the Light you find yourself with more generosity inside to you and others.

This world will keep you busy. We are here to learn. you are worth it. So take the loving challenge to be honest, be present, and bring the loving grace field awake in surrender to Love, even as you are taken through the discomfort. The other side is amazing. It is the Loving Freedom, that is present in being present within. Be still , walk in the world knowing you are more than this. It is a grand scheme of Divine Love awakening this form home. This Home is in everything, tune – wake to the Love and it will flow in you as you , being supported. There is no limit to this expansion. So there is no limit to what can be brought to the Loving Light. Come Present in you and open to the Divine Song singing you, and bring all that is there, place it at the feet of God. Love is present.

In Loving Service

Christi

Love Flow – Gratitude – Loving

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The essence of love grows through letting go of routines of right and wrong.

The idea of seperation is like the waves that come to surface during a storm or change in tides. All of the comings and goings never really separate from the ONE. Inside most humans experience from a perspective that life is happening outside of ones self, in a sense of separation. We experience within , we withhold Love by our own inner shut down. When disturbance or tides move, if we ride the shift in that moment and use it as a negative truth, we are taking a position that starts the withholding inside to ourselves. Going against the flow of the tide, that is offering an experience of expansion. We may move into resistance to be safe, through old lenses that perceive there has been betrayal or abandonment This probably will be emotional and mental. It will feel visceral and powerful. So we believe it to be true. This comes as a lifelong pattern. A signal…

What if you paused and opened yourself to love. Inner love, not righteous? What if you had an expanded knowing inside that whatever has taken place or is happening is revealing a place in you that withholds love to you. Expectations of others and Betrayal can seem devastating when you see the world around you as your guide. It is a reflection that reveals you. The world inside is the place all of your information is stored and reveals how you are in flow or not in flow of love. You will be shaken not to harm but, to give an opportunity to move to honesty in love. Where are you hiding, where are you withholding love in you to you. In a blink of an eye another may not respond how you want and you crumble. You take a mantle of good and bad, unforgivable. The tide ebbs and flows. Everyone has a process of taking care of themselves. Some lash out in blame and with -hold love to others and to themselves in that choice.

If you take time to pause and listen to the pain story you are telling yourself, and give voice to the part of you that has with-held love over and over to yourself and others, blaming them, ie parents, coworkers and anyone else, you will see how you with held love to you. You decided this keeps you safe. Could you know, no one is perfect. do you ever make mistakes? What do you do with that? Do you judge yourself, do you pretend you do not have that in you? What if you take time to be honest, not afraid to see and bring love to the places that are pretending to be “perfect”” in the way you perceive love should look. Love is an experience inside that keeps growing in flow, it does not need to inflict or control others to know love. It is present in the breath it has no limit, except in our humanness. Which is the design here. Letting go to a place within that goes beyond and receives in love and gives up in love and trust is available if we choose.

We all are of the infinite Divine Ocean of Love and Mercy. To experience this, we all have an opportunity to pause and accept what has come present is a gift, even if it is bumpy, the tide is moving. We have choice to let go in forgiveness, learning, let go to and ride the loving tide as your guide, revealing and healing the places that keep recreating the hurt and more. You hold this key. It is not about another person. Others can assist you to find your keys and doors to open to the flow. Things happen in this world, from the human view, it may seem confusing and hurtful. This is your opportunity to know Spirt, this is your journey to awaken Love. if you are willing, you will receive a gift of expanded love in the places that have been reflected in you as separate.. From there Grace happens and you know all is well, you are Beloved.

Open yourself to the Infinite tides of Love. Each bump has a Love message. A message in a bottle if you will. Open the bottles. Let all be revealed back to the Ocean Of Love and Mercy.

“God Bless you, I Love You Peace be still” J.R.

This song or prayer is a powerful tool, try singing it to yourself and to those you are in disturbance with. Let it flow in you. It is not about another person or situation it is in you.

Dance in the Light Bright.. You are Loved.

In Loving Service

Christi