Another moment of sharing, More In This Process…This too will Pass…
Im always aware that we all are hearing and experiencing through our own views in the illusion that we carry.
I was recently sharing in a conversation with someone, I was speaking from the heart and openness of vulnerability. We were speaking of change, i.e. change is constant. Not a new concept, one that is constant and the one that we all know is happening.
I was enjoying that I am 58 and still on the journey from an innocent place, willing to share this vulnerability . I love that I do not know it all, as there is more liberation of Love I have not experienced . How wonderful there is more! I even have the human condition of being one who does not have any of it figured out, just going with the experience,moving to understanding. or a knowing of all is well in the moment. I used the phrase figured out expressing a mental statement of Im always surprised, even though I understand change is constant. Correction my mind is surprised, in what change looks like is more wonderful than what I imagined most times. I am in gratitude.
I shared with this person from a level of understanding and bit of knowledge from experiencing change in my heart innocence, they came back on me in a way a lawyer might do energetically. They used my words against me, as if they caught me in something and they were going to win by twisting the energy on the mental level. It was amazing as the negative control energy pushed against my heart and I no longer could share. This was a one way conversation, they were now shutting off connection and trying to control through the mind.
Well, part of me that was frustrated from being twisted and misunderstood, shut off too. The subject of control is so wonderful. We all are on the path in the perfect ways for ourselves. This was a perfect moment of reflection, everyone feeling some version of control or out of control happening inside.
One of the things I keep learning in greater ways, is the minute I think I understand what it is to not be in control there in another opening to what that really is. So when we think we know and speak from the mind, attempting to show we know what its all about already, this is still a way of trying to be in control. Now remember when I say this, it just how I experienced this.
I am grateful for this conversation as it gives me opportunity to relax and go deeper into letting others go and allowing my heart to regain its innocence of Love in my own center. The experience of shutting off was important as I am aware that trusting the Love in all situations can be challenging in the moment at times. The unconscious memories or beliefs can come forward with the perfect encounter. Does this mean we make a person be how they are to us ,no, this means we are ready to have more self-awareness and healing if we are open to this. It is up to us how we view and expand, heal, or judge what is available in the moment. I was able to move to myself and shift to my own Loving with an intention and shift of focus back to what I was was experiencing , Loving the discomfort back to my freedom in my Loving Center.
Someone brought forward the saying what you think or focus on is what you bring to yourself. Yes and there is the Karmic patterns and unconscious memory patterns that are included in this. Focusing on love and kindness is a truly uplifting expansion and will change your experience with in and on the outer. This world is a polarity of experience opportunity. This focus of Love and open sharing is always an intention yet, there can be varying encounters with the outer world. How we do with what comes forward inside us, is the real relationship. So the world may do what it does, what we do with our inner world is the experience we have in the midst of many possibilities. It is not a failure or problem when something shows up to rub us, it is an opportunity. If you believe we are only doing well when things are flowing in ease, then we must be believing something opposite when things are bumpy. What if Bumpy is still equal and we could still know love and happiness flowing in the NOW. When we judge what is, we are now in separation, we are NOW in a negative opportunity.
I also am aware I am still in this Human experience and there is more of my creation to Light into Love, or Love into Light.
This is not a competition. I have always steered away from competition, not because Im afraid, I just never felt better when I ” won”. Very early on I would experience how the “looser” felt. I experienced a sense of separation that was actually the opposite of what I was seeking. I decided I enjoyed sharing in vulnerability in Love. I am also aware that I can Love those competitive energies and not shut off Love. I am still polishing myself around that.
When I meet or I am around those who have walked the walk here longer, I appreciate what they have to offer and I am open to their sharing in the Heart.
Sharing in the Heart is sacred.
I realized I am sharing from a place of truth and vulnerability in this writing. This is true of me, I do get off center still. There is no shame or wrongness. My desire to be met in Love still can throw me as I will stumble into wanting that experience from someone else in sharing. To be able to be in the fullness of my Heart source and not step out of my center, allowing others to be as they are, without being shaken is a path I am loving learning and still walking on. When I am in this center many times others move to their own and we all lift together. This can happen but, if it does not it is not wrong.
Allow yourself to listen, not prove you know already, and you might experience something way beyond the mind opens up in you. Then you will enjoy and love the one who is willing to let go of control in the real sense with-in. Seeing everyone as a gift bringing something to you that you might need, to really be open is to be in innocence. To listen and share from the heart is completely different than pushing your way to show you already know. Staying in the Heart Center is the gift and the challenge.
It is not about words, it is an experience available beyond the mind and words that can permeate your very being-ness and then the real change is at hand. It is the Spirit that can sing through you by being open to more of what you have not yet allowed.
There is no end to this dance or song of God. So just when you “think” you know what it is to not know, you will be surprised.
Relax and let go…Be surprised…Be Love…