Monthly Archives: May 2019

Let Go, Heaven – Home Within


Drop your bags let go – go home – within.

Stop looking and Be… Allow…

Click song.

One more for the Heart …

In Loving Service


Expansion and Letting Go …


II want to share a new- not new awareness.

I have been on a path of awakening and I am still in that process in every breath.

The Beauty and challenge is always present to take care of ones self in the Loving and know that old ways of relating to ourself and  others will change,  taking us on a path that changes the relationship inside and the outer view changes.

I have had a wonderful shift lately. The gift of very old friend whom I spoke to frequently , stepped away from me, I know nothing of her process  I trust it is loving, but it has allowed me new awarenesses of me. Loving and being more with me in a more authentic way. I have become more aware of how I was controlling myself and even her in the way I related. Of course there are old past life patterns being cleared. That is where all that comes from.

When this happens it does not mean that there is not love. it just means that  the relationship has changed inside me and will not be the same with me. I do not know what it will look like other than it is present now in a more expanded Loving within me with me, I am more present in the Presence.

I am aware during this process, of slipping into old needs and reaching out in the midst of expansion , even though I know the person does not want that. Funny because it is just to fill a space seeking Love, like eating something when discomfort comes or even when I am very high in my Spirit Love, I will disperse it by reaching out to others. Instead  of being with me and God as One awareness. These times are opportunities to be more present n the Presence and know – Be Love is Present  No judgements on the one who wants…and does not know the is-ness is present.

I also had another relationship change but, I was the one who stepped away. I was aware of taking on their life instead of being me. This was me making me sick. My choice to step back, take care of me is out of Love. I am also aware of how we all want to control others, and when something like this happens, we may put a negative spin on it, when it is not negative, it is change. Change is about expansion in love.

Possessive love is controlling others through shoulds. Where do we do this to ourselves? Where do we believe we are responsible for how someone is feeling.  and that they should feel different, where we should be  abandoning  our self care so someone else feels better. They do not feel better because of another person, it is an inside uplifting that can only happen if they choose to open to what, they are ignoring what is truly causing their need to be filled  Pulling the outer to fill the place that is feeling lost.  We become pulled down by our over responsibility  and the other person is not served, just like eating when we are upset or off balance or even happy. We all have the coming and going on this. The comfort will be within being present with what is in the discomfort. Learning to be and open to Spirit and Healing is key to all of this.

I am so grateful for my friend who stepped away, it has opened many challenges that I have overlooked and is allowing me to clear my Karma and patterns of abandoning myself so others are okay, so I feel okay and also how I have controlled my relationships or attempted to inside me and on the outer.

I had an experience with my Mentor from years ago, he was family to me. There was a change in the Karma for me. He had always been available for my calls when I was in need of help in clearing or just a lift. This was so amazing, At one point he backed off and I was left with me. I remember being frustrated and many other emotions and thoughts. I also at some point was driven inward to find the Key in me, the surrender in to Spirit, The Beloved . The way I had been working with him was as if he had all of my answers instead of knowing it was all in me. He could hold and reflect but, I misunderstood, and was not willing to be with all parts of me and love them. I was just trying to get rid of them, not in Loving. I began to Open to my own inner Mastery of the Spirit, when I started taking responsibility for me in loving, not avoiding me. This allowed more connection with God and a letting go of Judgements in a deeper more loving surrender. I was being done or undone.  The time I spent working with him and others after that became much more profound in the loving. I was more vulnerable surrendering to God, to love. I was willing to receive without control.

I still work with people for assistance but, at some point after being given the space to go deeper to lift – surrending to Spirit and healing I had found  the place I had held him as God in me and how I do that with others. instead of knowing God in me Stepping back is key, when we have tried to put someone inside us, as if they are God to fulfill our lives. We can know this when we demand in the relationship. We all do it, it part of our experience. The awakening is a process, so we will find these places and that is okay.

We are here to have relationships, but how are we having them? I am not saying leave everyone in your life, I am saying go within and if you see you are not taking care of yourself, take a step back, to take care. Be with you, all of you, foibles and all,  allow the gift to surface with – in the support of the Divine Love.

The light work I provide is all about you being present and allowing your inner Master to awaken through healing. I do not do it for you, because I realized when my Mentor was wise and stepped back, that was his service to reflect and hold – allow Spirit to do but, I had not allowed it. I was not allowing me to surrender in and to Divine Love. It is beyond the mind and emotions.

What happens is someone who caries  high connection of Spirit Within, reflects to us what we are. If we spend time with those who can do this or are this, we will find ourselves in new ways.  We are the key in acceptance to receive yet, not avoid ourself.

Understand Spirit is always present , if we are over burdening ourselves for others we will feel lost and even find our health along with other areas more challenged. To Love and to Serve is take care of ourselves, to do this we must know ourselves. Pay attention.

Allow the Ones you love freedom, allow yourself freedom. This is not about hurting others or blaming others it is expansion, beyond possessive Love. We are infinite , it is pretty hard to contain that in one place in one way. Change is growth and freedom, it is expansion in love if you will allow yourself to explore these opportunities as they come forward.

We will find our sharing and caring much more joyful and expanded as we will be that inside.

Relationships change. That is not wrong. There is something new and expanded calling us inside, not because of another person. Open to your inner Relationship with the Divine and allow change. In Loving in Infinite possibilities .

The things that are constant are change and Love even when we think it is not present it is. Look for this in everything. Look inside and you will find that is what you are being Breathed with. The Divine love, the Breath of God is Present.





When things become stirred  up in your life, this only means there are opportunities of transformation calling you to freedom. Choosing into love is the purpose. There is always more Love pushing through if you will make yourself available. This Love is your natural state of Being – Awaken to the Divine presence that is present. You are One.

You are a multi-dimensional Divine being, exploring yourself in a human expression. You hold the answers you are seeking that will unlock your inner freedom.  This is an ongoing journey of opportunity each day, each breath. Freedom within is the place it all takes place.

Freedom from your beliefs, the illusion, that limit you and keep you stuck in patterns that do not serve you anymore. These patterns also keep you in a sense of separation from the Divine Love you are.

With the help of Spirit, We can track and free these patterns of old. Some may have been brought in from past life experiences and others from this life time,  your family DNA and the collective Karma. 

Through this process, you will access the blocks that are present, clear them with the light. Opening the doors to more loving possibilities in your life.  Opening the Essence of the Divine awareness that you are and are of.

You are the key that holds the map of karma you have laid out for yourself in this lifetime. When you open to the Grace, you will begin to know your true self, the Beloved,  as you awakens in the Light, breaking through the illusions that keep you distracted in negativity.

This work brings relief – transformation  – emotionally, physically and spiritually, bringing you closer to the truth in loving, the Beloved, and opening you up for more grace in your  inner and outer life. It is all within.

Please Note: I am on  Pacific Time.

If you are in another time zone you will need to calculate. I am flexible when I can be. In Loving Service.

My Appointments times are as below : These times can be flexible when it aligns, so please ask if needed.. All sessions run 11/2 to 2 hours

11:00 am Pacific Time

2:00pm Pacific Time

4:00pm Pacific Time

6:00pm Pacific Time


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Session time is  1 1/2 to 2 hours but, please always  allow 2 hours .

  1. SESSIONS Fee:  Single Session  $350 …Prepaid  

2. SERIES of 3 SESSIONS – 1 1/2 to 2 hour @ $900…Prepaid. The series is a very powerful way to commit to yourself and spirit, allowing a clear path of loving transformation. I recommend this for those who are just starting the work or are in more challenging times. I recommend they be done no further apart than 2 weeks. They must be completed with – in 3 months then they expire.

3. SERIES of 4 SESSIONS –  1 hour @ $900…Prepaid, This series designed to be done 4 weeks in a row, each 1 hour only . This is a way of continuing your Light support, I recommend first becoming familiar with your Light work via the longer sessions single or series before taking on this process. There are no rules here so, you decide. Love is the key to all of this. Vulnerable honesty… You must do these consecutively 4 weeks in a row, completed. This series is designed for phone or Skype.

4. BY THE MINUTE – Phone and Skype sessions. Phone and Skype – @ $3.75 a  minute.

5.  Retreat and Workshop offerings are an amazing way to gather in the Light, opening to the expansion in meditation and sharing. Where two or more gather we are expanded. Sharing can be a powerful vulnerable liberating experience. Stepping into your Inner Master is a journey of Love. ***

You are the Light…Choose yourself in clear, clean Light choices of love, health, wealth and happiness. Nothing has more power than your Light, be willing to let go of the things that keep you unaware and choose to live in the power of your Light and Love. It is all up to you.



When scheduling and  booking a travel appointment,  ( Christi is traveling to your town) A credit card or check will be required  to hold your session. If you want to give a credit card number to hold  until the session  and prefer to pay in cash or check at the appointment that is available.

My  cancelation policy is 1 week  notice prior, to scheduled appointment or  if it is a short notice booking it is confirmed.

I am grateful to be part of the journey we are all on. Support and exchange of loving is what we do and I am honored to be part of this.

We are one.

Love and  Light

Phone : 415-606-4883

**** All sessions expire after 4 months. All sessions are non – refundable and non – transferable to another person or event.****

I am Located in a small town just a few minutes south of Santa Barbara called Carpinteria. I see people privately in Carpinteria and offer workshops at Montecito Yoga and other locations.  I travel to San Francisco, Sun Valley, Idaho, and New York, New York.

There is no beginning or end. Breathe in the fragrance of your creation, being open to the rich essence of love in all.

It is our creation that allows the beauty of our life to reflect to us. Trust the dark crevices to present the sweetness hidden in the growth. These are the places you will find your truth. CM

Love and Light to our journey here together.


Testimonials :

Healing with Christi is life changing.

If there is part of you wanting to let go and truly be free, I highly recommend working with Christi.

In three and a half years of working together, I’ve experienced incredible life changes. I’ve healed from chronic Lyme Disease and the belief that perpetuated my illness. My marriage came apart and resurrected anew. While my marriage is a daily practice, kindness, respect, and acceptance fill it more and more. My career vision came true down to each detail. And, wonderfully, I’m now healthfully pregnant with my husband’s and my first child.

More than these changes though, what is truly incredible, is the change within my internal state. I know now, deeply, that I am loved. That I am the savior I had searched for for 15 years. That I am being taken care of, irrespective of what my circumstances look like.With this knowing, there is a sense of peace. Even in harry, challenging times, there is an understanding somewhere inside that the challenges will pass and show me a new way to grow. During these times, when I stop resisting, the sense of peace returns.

In terms of what it looks like to work with Christi, Christi offers a clear channel of healing. Before working with her, I had seen tens of healers, psychics, astrologers, coaches, and spiritual teachers, and had participated in 15 years of five types of therapy. Working with Christi is different. She connects with the divine love and wisdom within you and translates it for you. It’s amazing.

C.C. San Francisco

Christi meets each of us with an unending well of compassion and love. I feel utterly held in the light and the safety of unconditional loving through her work and in her presence.  I deeply appreciate her clarity and willingness to pause and listen, even when I want to skip ahead.  She lives by example… truly being guided by spirit, and demonstrates this with every breath.

The weekend retreats, in particular, have offered me an opportunity to sit in awareness of the light, without the pull of outer worldly distractions and separation. These glimpses into Presence seem to be slowly stringing together to show me that it is possible to live without the seams of separation, and the group process shows me that I am not alone on this journey.
I am constantly amazed at Christi’s ability to be open to the love that is always present and share her own process, so that I can learn to love my own human-ness, and be open to not knowing. As I journey on this path of awakening, of remembering myself as the beloved of the beloved, I am eternally grateful for Christi’s skilled guidance, loving facilitation, and her consistent, persistent and impeccable reminders that joy is present, and love is always the answer. Thank you, Christi.
D.Z. Santa Barbara,California

I have worked with Christi for almost nine years. As I look back at where I started and the changes that Christi has assisted me through, I cannot help but be so extremely thankful that the universe brought us together. I used to live a life of fear and surface. I literally skated through each day like that. I kept my personal can of worms so deeply hidden that I almost had myself convinced it didn’t exist. The thought of addressing my “problems” which I now see as beliefs were more scary in thought then actuality. I began seeing Christi a few times a year which had a great impact on my life. After a few years I started packages. I saw deeply profound changes as a result of those packages. I always consider healing work for myself like an onion – you keep peeling the layers. They keep going. Having made the commitment to myself to do more consistent change allowed the loving to come in deeply. Loving myself, loving my “issues”, loving my beliefs and even loving my circumstances.  Christi’s work has allowed me to be more honest with myself and most importantly, more loving. That is the gift in everything and the journey of the soul. There is such joy and love available and It is so much more powerful than fear. But I am so thankful for that fear – It was my beacon to find the loving and with Christi as my guide my life is forever changed.

Danielle P.   San Francisco


I have sought out healing work with Christi on numerous occasions. I go to her when I need help breaking through major emotional and mental barriers that are preventing me from loving myself more fully. I’ve done work with psychologists and other intuitive and spiritual healers, but Christi’s work is unique in its power and effectiveness in bringing about immediate and lasting transformation. One of the many things I love about going to Christi is that I can relax and be myself (the good, bad, and ugly) and she is strong enough to hold whatever appears. She is a powerful channel of God’s love and healing presence and I would recommend her to anyone who is ready to become more loving of themselves, others, and God.

Stelli Munis.   Austin, Tx

Christi has useable knowledgeable in helping others deal with difficult people. She has helped me build a closer relationship with my family members, but it is necessary to be open and expansive to her methods. I highly recommend her.

Paula Pagano.     San Francisco


I  have had the honor of working with Christi on several occasions both in phone and in person.  Each time she was my wise, loving, and gentle guide taking me on an adventure deep within myself.  The experience was one of meeting and then taking apart long held belief structures that no longer served me. Each was a quite profound experience to really see and understand why they were there, and then release and let them go.  Christi always had great humor and gentleness around them – her lightness and joy were like the salve to help heal those old wounds and emotions that get locked inside.  After a session, I was able to see more clearly how these had held me back and was shocked to see the change in how even others responded to me afterward.  It was as if she had somehow worked on them too so that they showed up more loving and open.  

 There were a few beliefs that I was quite attached to, and she helped me see how limiting these were and how that manifested in my current experience.  Her commitment to wholeness, healing and seeing the beauty and completeness in who we are already is a rarity.  She doesn’t try to “fix” you or remove darkness, but instead can show you the immense light that you are already but perhaps haven’t yet fully come to comprehend or embody.  She brings her full being each time and is so committed to creating an experience of deep insight, awakening and profound love.  She is an amazing gift and am lucky to have had her in my life.

I send you much love and gratitude!

Elizabeth Cooke  New York 


An experience with Christi is indescribable.  She helped me find my way through one of the my toughest times continues to guide me on my own path to a happier and more fulfilling life.

Stephanie  Carlson.  Sun Valley




Let Love



Let Love…

It is our natural state of being. This is a powerful Love, Light inspiration of the Divine Breathing us awake.

Let go – Are you sharing yourself with limitations? Do you hold your breath when you are sharing with others?

Do you hold your breath when you are alone feeling yourself? Your thoughts, your worries, your pain? Are you even aware of this?

When you allow the Light to Breathe you, you find you are not in control, but relaxed , lifted , expanded. Sometimes it is so powerful you experience an expansion that feels almost like the opposite is happening, as you are out growing…Letting Go… Letting God love lift you in ways you only know when it happens.

Be with yourself and open to what comes present, if you find restrictions, call yourself open to the loving Spirit to receive the expansion the healing through awareness and love. Do not be afraid of yourself, your own discomfort is only the place or places that are awaiting the release through Grace.

You are the inspiration of God. Where you judge yourself or others is just the place you are in denial of your Divine self. Your worthiness. When you retract your loving from others, is where you retract your loving to yourself.

BE kind to yourself. Break the molds of old and open to the presence of love in all these darkend places. Light is present there. You are Bigger than those places.

Breathe deeply in … Breathe deeply love.. Let go, expand – forgive and breathe and allow the Beloved to fill those places with Divine Breath.

You are Beloved Love, Ignite in the surrender. There are no limitation except what you decide is limited.

BE in the flow of the Divine light and you will know – no boundaries as you follow the Love. All roads open . Your heart map is designed to bring you home. No fear, no separation, only the heartbeat – humm of the Divine presence.

You are God’s Love Song…



Opportunity is Present – Awakening the Flower of Divine Love – Spring Retreat May 10, 11, & 12, 2019



TIME MAY 10 TH  –  3:00PM TO 6:00PM – MAY 11 TH –  9:30 AM TO 5:30PM – MAY 12 TH –  9:30 TO 5:00PM  

The essence of the Beloved is an unfolding, revealing the sweetness that is singing and blooming within every cell. This is a renewal of the Beloved you – in every breath.

Blooming in the Light is an ongoing expansion of awareness of the Divine sweet essence you are.

Going within the places that are holding tight in resistance with loving light allows the presence of your own inner Divine design to awaken in the presence of illumination.

We will take our time and create a holding space of Love illuminated with the Spirit to explore and allow the freedom of flow to release these restriction that have forgotten the way of love is present no matter what has happened. These may be imprinted by our family, society, religion and more, allowing the experience of alchemy through the Divine Presence awaking in surrender to innocence .

We will be in meditation and Light processing.

This is a small group of Loving sharing, that brings sweet awakening in the Beauty of the Light Ignited within.

Times: May 10th, 11th, & 12th, 2019

Friday, 10th   3:00pm to 6:00pm

Saturday, 11th  9:30 am to 6:00pm

Sunday 12th 9:30 am to 6:00pm

Tuition: Cottage Residential $550.00 – Non Cottage Residential $600.00

REGISTRATION FOR ALL OFFERING: email: or call: 415-606-4883.

RETREAT – Cottage reservation should be done as soon as possible, Below are details.

I am once again excited to hold and house our retreat at The Cottages in Carpinteria California, where we can all be together holding the light.

Staying at the cottages for the weekend is encouraged but not a must. Residing at the cottages, allows you to step away from your day-to-day patterns, giving yourself completely over to the loving support offered in the retreat atmosphere. If you are unable to retreat at the cottages, you are still welcome to take part in this light filled weekend.

 This is a beautiful, playful cluster of bungalows located in the small town of Carpinteria, California, just a few miles south of Santa Barbara and few blocks from the beach.

Call property manager, Lisa Carey, for reservations at 805.680.6622 ~ Let her know you are part of the retreat.