Beloved With-In Weekend Retreat~ It’s Approaching Quickly ~ September 30th, October, 1st & 2nd 2016



Fall Is Approaching and Transition is Happening.
Come join the Loving.
There are 2 cottages left, if you are thinking of coming Please book your Cottage and let me know. The Cottages are great for sharing with another.
 Please call Lisa at 805-566-0701 as she will give you a little discount when you let her know you are coming to the retreat.

We hold the answers of Love with-in. Do you know the upset you experience is only information? This is the very information you are looking for – these are the things that are keeping you from knowing the Beloved with-in, and nothing is missing.

Letting go of looking towards others for your answers, knowing you hold the infinite love with-in can sound lonely and confusing. When you know what you are and are of, you know all the answers are held with-in the Beloved. You know yourself as whole when you become attuned to the Beloved you in God. Becoming attuned to God is the answer. Open your heart and listen.

Having no fear of the shadows with-in begins to open you to the light. Inviting the Light in and being present with these gifts of discomfort will bring you the freedom you are seeking. The comfort sits on the other side of the discomfort. Your creative self sits in the center of the unconditional love. When you are willing to love the negativity to freedom, embracing change, you will experience the doors of Heaven with-in opening in the infinite that is in the moment. All is possible, all is here now. You must open your channels to the song of God that is singing with-in you.

You are the Beloved of the Beloved. Be in Love, Be the Love. You already are and do not know it.

Come join in exploring this Beloved Light you are made of. Letting go of the things that are deafening your hearing, your knowing the Beloved that is in all.

There will be meditation, processing and attuning with the light. Unfolding the delights you are holding hidden in the shadows. This is where the answers are waiting to be freed.

Be open to you in the Beloved. This is an infinite journey of love.

There will be beach walks and journal writing.
Please bring your journal and any drawing / writing accessories you like.
Bring comfortable clothes and layers as the temperature can vary.

Friday • Sept 30 • 3:00pm – 6:00pm
Saturday • Oct 1 • 9:30am – 6:00pm
Sunday • Oct 2 • 9:30am – 5:30pm

Residential Tuition: $550
Non-Residential Tuition: $600
[ Tuition is non- refundable as of Sept 1, 2016 ] 

Registration: Christi Mider 415-606-4883

I am once again excited to hold and house our retreat at The Cottages in Carpinteria California, where we can all be together holding the light.

Staying at the cottages for the weekend is encouraged but not a must. Residing at the cottages, allows you to step away from your day to day patterns, giving yourself completely over to the loving support offered in the retreat atmosphere. If you are unable to retreat at the cottages, you are still welcome to take part in this light filled weekend.

This is a beautiful, playful cluster of bungalows located in the small town of Carpinteria, California, just a few miles south of Santa Barbara and few blocks from the beach.

Call property manager, Lisa Carey, for reservations at 805.680.6622

Games of the Mind in Process


Another moment of sharing, More In This Process…This too will Pass…

Im always aware that we all are hearing and experiencing through  our own views in the illusion that we carry.

I was recently sharing in a conversation with someone, I was speaking from the heart and openness of vulnerability. We were speaking of change, i.e. change is constant. Not a new concept, one that is constant and the one that we all know is happening.

I was enjoying that I am 58 and still on the journey from an innocent place, willing to share this vulnerability . I love that I  do not know it all, as there is more liberation  of Love I have not experienced . How wonderful there is more!  I even have the human condition of being one who does not have any of it figured out, just going with the experience,moving to understanding. or a knowing of all is well in the moment. I used the phrase figured out expressing a mental statement of Im always surprised,  even though I understand change is constant. Correction my mind is surprised, in what change looks like is more wonderful than what I  imagined most times. I am in gratitude.

I shared with this person from a level of understanding and bit of knowledge from experiencing change in my heart innocence, they came back on me in a way a lawyer might do energetically. They used my words against me, as if they caught me in something and they were going to win by twisting the energy on the mental level. It was amazing as the negative control energy pushed against my heart and I no longer could share. This was a one way conversation, they were now shutting off connection and trying to control through the mind.

Well, part of me that was frustrated from being twisted and misunderstood, shut off too. The subject of control is so wonderful. We all are on the path in the perfect ways for ourselves. This was a perfect moment of reflection, everyone feeling some version of control or out of control happening inside.

One of the things I keep learning in greater ways, is the minute I think I understand what it is to not be in control there in another opening to what that really is. So when we think we know and speak from the mind, attempting to show we know what its all about already,  this is still a way of trying to be in control. Now remember when I say this, it just how I experienced this.

I am grateful for this conversation as it gives me opportunity to relax and go deeper into letting others go and allowing my heart to regain its innocence of Love in my own center.  The experience of shutting off was important as I am aware that trusting the Love in all situations can be challenging in the moment at times.  The unconscious memories or beliefs can come forward with the perfect encounter. Does this mean we make a person be how they are to us ,no, this means we are ready to have more self-awareness and healing if we are open to this. It is up to us how we view and expand, heal, or judge what is available in the moment. I was able to move to myself and shift to my own Loving with an intention and shift of focus back to what I was was experiencing , Loving the discomfort back to my freedom in my Loving Center.

Someone brought forward the  saying what you think or focus on is what you bring to yourself. Yes and there is the Karmic patterns and unconscious memory patterns that are included in this. Focusing on love and kindness is a truly uplifting expansion and will change your experience with in and on the outer. This world is a polarity of experience opportunity. This focus of Love and open sharing is always an intention yet, there can be  varying encounters with the outer world. How we do with what comes forward inside us, is the real relationship. So the world may do what it does, what we do with our inner world is the experience we have in the midst of many possibilities. It is not a failure or problem when something shows up to rub us, it is an opportunity. If you believe we are only doing well when things are flowing in ease, then we must be believing something opposite when things are bumpy. What if Bumpy is still equal and we could still know love and happiness flowing in the NOW. When we judge what is, we are now in separation, we are NOW in a negative opportunity.

I also am aware I am still in this Human experience and there is more of my creation to Light into Love, or Love into Light.

This is not a competition. I have always steered away from competition, not because Im afraid, I just never felt better when I ” won”. Very early on I would experience how the “looser” felt. I experienced a sense of separation that was actually the opposite of what I was seeking. I decided I enjoyed sharing in vulnerability in Love. I am also aware that I can Love those competitive energies and not shut off Love. I am still polishing myself around that.

When I meet or  I am around those who have walked the walk here longer, I appreciate what they have to offer and I am open to their sharing in the Heart.

Sharing  in the Heart is sacred.

I realized I am sharing from a place of truth and vulnerability in this writing. This is true of me, I do get off center still. There is no shame or wrongness. My desire to be met in Love still can throw me as I will stumble into wanting that experience from someone else in sharing. To be able to be in the fullness of my Heart source and not step out of my center, allowing others to be as they are, without being shaken is a path I am loving  learning  and still walking on. When I am in this center many times others move to their own and we all lift together. This can happen but, if it does not it is not wrong.

Allow yourself to listen, not prove you know already, and you might experience something way beyond the mind opens up in you. Then you will enjoy and love the one who is willing to let go of control in the real sense with-in.  Seeing everyone as a gift bringing something to you that you might need, to really be open is to be in innocence. To listen and share from the heart is completely different than pushing your way to show you already know. Staying in the Heart Center is the gift and the challenge.

It is not about words, it is an experience available beyond the mind and words that can permeate your very being-ness and then the real change is at hand. It is the Spirit that can sing through you by being open to more of what you have not yet allowed.

There is no end to this dance or song of God. So just when you “think” you know what it is to not know, you will be surprised.

Relax and let go…Be surprised…Be Love…



Breath in and relax. Now ~ Breath in Love Now ~ Breath Out Now~ Let Go of waiting.

I chose this image as I noticed I moved  inside to the sound and feeling that I experience when the water drop falls. So I paused and became in the Now with the water droplet as it is in the state before it falls. I suggest you try this and allow the parts of you that are moved to get ahead to let go, calm and just be present with what is.

Now be in the beauty and gratitude of this moment just where and how it is. Do not move to the next thought or desire of the next experience. Be in the fullness of this inside NOW.

What are you waiting for in your life , what is your finally that you believe will make you know all is well and you are Divine? It is not the finish line it already is. Can you allow yourself the fullness of Love of Spirit in your very breath in this moment. You think you know what change is or what it will feel like when the water drops. What if there is an entirely different experience of change within you right now. You must let go of any part of you that holds onto to the next thing, be present and willing in the  Loving innocence of the moment to receive and know what already is within you.

You allow what is to be in expansion of Love and light within right now.

Now love the parts of you that keep wanting to move to the next thing and be in control. Relax and know where you are holds all of that you seek. It is in you , Breathing you, You are the Divine essence of God. It is all here now. When you center to your true spirit ,you know you are the creation and if there is a step or movement coming forward it will be Grace filled and full just as you are experiencing yourself in the center Of love, of God Now.

This drop of water is full just as it is now. When it drops it expands, it lets go, yet it still is the water. Go within and let go of waiting and breath your heart open and be the fullness of the Love Light you are now. It is in the stillness yet the stillness is full of movement in Peace Love and Light. You are in the Presence when you are in this state of being.  This state of awareness is not a separate experience it is whole,it is Love,  it is Clear, just relax into  home.

BE Now ~ Be Love ~ Be Peace ~ It is NOW




Exploring a Peace Walk With-In Love

OCTOBER 31 ~ NOVEMBER 12, 2016

When we travel we may feel a special pull towards or resistance against various locations and cultures. We all carry memories of experiences from most areas on this planet and more.These internal experiences are probably memories, Karmic actions being stimulated. Travel is a great opportunity to clear and free those patterns that are holding in you and not serving you. Traveling out of your comfort zone allows the vulnerability to open to more release many times. We will explore this while playing in lands away from home.

This trip was inspired by spirit and a small group of individuals who take part in most of the retreats and workshops I have offered. If you are open to exploring in a new way your inner self in spirit this opportunity will be perfect. The places we will visit physically and in the inner will be focused on Love, Unity and Peace.

The intention of this trip is to create more experience for you to know where you hold on to upset, war, negativity, separation, then bring peace, love and unity to these places. Peace and Unity within the Beloved. Remember we are Breathed by Spirit the Beloved. To know this is to be the love in freedom. You will walk in Grace. You will walk in Joy.

Rome – 3 Days ~ October 31, November 1 – 3, 2016
Padova – 2 days ~ November 3 – 5, 2016
Tuscany Val D’Orcia – 7 days ~ November 5 – 12, 2016 

 *** Good Food will be on our Agenda ***

How To Take Part…2 Choices…
1) Full Retreat Journey
2) Tuscany Retreat Only

1) Full Journey Package:  $5261.15  Total
*Includes:  Rome, Padova and Tuscany. 

* Your Accommodations and Breakfast in Rome and Padova
* Guided Tours with the group
* Your Accommodations and Meals at the Villa Lira in Tuscany
* Retreat with Christi and Group
* Car and Trains while traveling with the group
* Day spa fee for Mineral Baths in Tuscany
   (If you choose any extra treatments, this will be your responsibility.)

 2) Tuscany Retreat Only: $4156.15 

* Villa Lira accommodations and Meals at Villa
* Retreat ~ Meditation and Processing with Christi and group.
* Day spa fee for Mineral Baths in Tuscany
    (If you choose any extra treatments, this will be your responsibility.)
* Car from Train Station to Villa and Back
* Transport to Spa any other group outings.

November 5th ~ Evening Retreat 3 hours
November 5, 7, 8 ~ Retreat
November 9 ~ Spa Mineral Baths
November10 ~ Retreat
November 11 ~ Free Morning, Afternoon Retreat

November 12 ~ Check out… In Loving Light

*** Plane Reservations and fare will be your responsibility. If you have questions please feel free to ask. Rome is the most Direct flight and place to arrive.*** 

*** If you are only taking part in the Tuscany Retreat we will let you know where you should train to.***

*** We will be traveling by train between cities and Tuscany. ***

This will be an amazing journey for all who are called.

 Now that you are inspired and you are feeling the call, this is how you can reserve your space:

1) Pay in full
2) Pay $1000 non-refundable deposit due now to secure your space
* Remaining balance due in full by September 25, 2016.





Today I was listening to my chatter and aware of the discomfort that was dancing around and in my body along with the surrounding energy field .

I heard  from with-in, you share through writing to go to the Love. This is good  a time  to share information on what that really might look like.  I am called to walk through what that might be like with you in this sharing..

This is a process of being in the moment, not waiting for the next moment when you will feel better. Have the intention of I am here now and open to not knowing and feeling really bugged, angry, sad or many others emotions. These emotions and chatter are just temporary but, they are telling you something. A part of you needs to be heard, not pushed out or denied, shamed or judged, just heard.

So take a deep breath and just allow the moment to be okay, maybe place your hand on your heart, listen to your heart beat, this can center you to be available to listen to what might be going on. Listen from a place that might be a loving parent listening to a child who is unhappy or hurt. Let this conversation, the emotion inside you be met with the one who is the Love you are. Comfort the upset, allow it space to release the energy from restriction.  It is not wrong in its existence, yet it is seeking Love through contraction. This restriction most likely has been held inside from long ago and now is a tender spot that can easily be hurt or rubbed wrong. When we contract we shut off the flow of Loving inside and this causes more polarity in our  bodies and can cause illness and disconnect in the world. Love meets Love.

Listen and allow it to be loved just as it is. Have a loving conversation with the one who is upset inside. In this conversation, you might find the answer for the part of you that has been seeking in this area. Be open to not knowing as you just love  and listen to  the hurt  you. This love is not a righteous thing. In righteousness you are in restriction. Be willing to be the innocent one who does not have the answer but, is being held in love from with-in.

You might notice your body and mind begin to relax and let go of the tension it was holding. When we let go of against-ness we become open to receiving. What we were and are seeking is Love. The more we become the source of the Love attuning with-in to that part that is the Beloved , which is always available, we are able to free ourselves of what  we have been holding onto in  negativity. We have a knowing that all is well, and we are loved and love. We know this even if others do not agree with us or do not do what we want them to do. We find that we hold the answer to all that is going on inside and in the outer world in our reality.

We are powerful in our loving essence. This is not an emotional, mental love. It is one that is expansive and willing, like your heart beat. Loving thoughts will flow easily as we move into more awareness of this Beloved one.

This process can be quick and it can take time. there are no rules, be willing to let go through your own listening and loving. This can be amazing as the hurt will begin to resolve itself in the loving. Like water it can flow out and you will fill with the loving light.

Sometimes these places have many nuances and will show up again, this is just another part of it that has not been resolved, do not judge that it is back and the same, it most likely is not the same just another angle that is ready to be polished in Love.

The shame and judgments can be loved and let go of. We only held these as protection. We lay down the hurt, anger, rightness and more. We move to the uplifting love. We move to the unity and solution. We are now becoming free with-in and we are free in our sharing.

We are the Beloved of the Beloved. Be open to this in the innocence of the heart, you will know this as you know your heart is beating.



light to lighten the darkness

There is a place of integrity within, where the true self lives, where you do not deceive yourself – the home of truth. It can be a bloody place, a place of real severity, and it can often be involved with suffering. But the pain will dissolve, the wounds will heal, and peace will bloom once you choose and commit to finding the source of your life’s joy within you. Then the negativity is transmuted on the altar of your honesty, and the flower of your life blossoms in joy, loving and abundance. – John-Roger, D.S.S. (From: Loving Each Day for Peacemakers, Choosing Peace Every Day, p. 188)

Rising ~~


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