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Bigger Healing Expansion

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I want to share a process that I have been in for years. Still having opportunities.

I live in a diverse neighborhood. When COVID came, more people moved into the homes around me. It became very crowded in their homes and on the street. More emotions and frequency of people trying to get along in tight spaces.

The polishing of keeping a loving boundary and the influence of the psychic frequency that changed here has been a strengthener, not always easy to lift and hold in peace and love. I found the places in me that were experiencing powerlessness to negativity.

If you have seen West Side Story, I’m doing a spoiler in sharing if you haven’t. Sorry. After there was the shootings of Maria’s loved ones, she encounters the young man who became wrapped up in the fight. and shot her love. He was not really in the middle of it, but was pulled into the sides in anger, then shot the person he had been told was the enemy. Families and ethnic separation, countries, streets, towns, etc., all have a sense of identity separate from others. We really feel and believe this is true. That is the design/illusion of the planet. This story was about a neighborhood. It reflects all of us inside and out.What I want to share is Maria, who saw only love, fell apart in grief and anger, took the gun from the young man, and said, ” I never knew how to hate until you taught me.” She turned the gun on him, did not shoot, then herself, did not shoot, then dropped the gun and wept. I wept when I saw this for the millionth time. Something in me remembered that moment of giving up love because all around me it seemed hopeless, hurt, abandoned, or more.. Turning the gun on someone is turning the gun on yourself. shutting off your love flow to survive. It is a beautiful offering to look inside and see how you have chosen this. No judgment, only compassion and forgiveness. We forget what we are and begin to move into separation inside as we experience this world, micro and macro. We can reclaim ourselves through awareness and compassion for ourselves, healing in Grace those places that give up or forget Love inside. Then, through those eyes, we have that for others. There is no other.

Another element of what I have been experiencing and watching is addiction. drugs, alcohol, and smoking. I am from a big family, and lots of drugs and drinking were part of my experience.. When I was 18, I was still living at home and pretty lost inside. I was partying a lot. Not present in me, nor really connecting with loved ones. I came home late one night, and ironically, I had been unwittingly drugged. I knew inside this was a turning point. When I entered my parents’ house, my Mother called out and told me to get out of her house now. This was not negotiable. My sister had attempted suicide that night and was brought home. My Mother was full to say the least.

I called a friend, and she allowed me to live with her and her family for a bit. I continued to drink too much. This was a kind person, and it was temporary. I was really hurt and upset with my Mom, and so was she with me. I have worked on my process of believing I had been abandoned and more. Just recently, Grace entered me. Addiction is something a person has to choose out of. My Mother Loved herself and me enough to do this. I look at that inside me now and I see how strong she was, but also how I had to walk this life I chose and choose to learn and strengthen my Love for me and let that lead my life. The sweetness that is coming alive in me, as I have allowed Love to lead this experience back into the Beloved I am and she is, goes beyond words. I am grateful.

Sometimes we think love is staying in the negative, or supporting the negative. What if you consider that we all have a Light that can ignite within? What if we have to turn back to ourselves in Love first? We can’t carry anyone that way. We can reflect and be a frequency of Love. They or we have to turn to the Love and field of healing to receive and expand. We are strong Love. We forget. That is okay. We are also pulled into remembrance. Love expands in us in Spirit, through Spirit, and we let go. Relax, forgive yourself. Love and allow it to reveal. It is a flow of God’s Infinite Love we are all made of.

Be grateful for those who held in Love even when it appeared to be a no, not anymore. Take a look inside and see what you reclaimed in Love, not righteousness. Give yourself the gift of a stepping stone instead of victim. Thank whoever played their part. Put the gun down and lift in Loving Light. e Gratefu lin Love to you and all involved.

You are Beloved – There is no other – Only ONE…

In Lovng Service

Christi

Expansion – Change

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Nothing is stagnant. Change is constant, inside and out.

I have been working with people over 23 years, when I say this it means I have been working with myself this entire lifetime and lifetimes. The view is always changing. I never presume I know the answer. My life has beauty in all experiences that may assist others, yet, each person has their unique view from within. This leads to a place of ONE.. Letting go of the knower and allowing the flow, the renewer in each breath, each moment is a path of Love. It is simple, Love. Love that goes beyond possesive – control – good – bad. It is Love present flow., receiving – giving Acceptance and observation – expansion of Being in the flow. No mental or emotional pull. We relax into all is present and none of this is truth. Come present and allow the light loving to lead the very presence in you to lead you. This love goes beyond.. there is always etc.

Come Present right now and you will be aware of a new view. Open your heart eyes. Each moment, each day, each experience is an inner expression. Come present inside and listen, feel, and observe what you are experiencing. That is your personal relationship to what is present.

You can choose in the moment to relax, breathe and allow love to be your frequency inside, if there is bumpy expression, just accept and be present in acceptance and love. You can keep open to expansion in the places that express in retraction, fear, hurt , anger and more. Let this be an expression but, not truth. It is an experience of your humanity. Loving humanity past right or wrong, allows a new view of compassion and opportunity to alchamy in Love. Freedom within. Your view expands and you open to a creative flow inspired in Love.

Love is free, as you let go to the Beloved in you, you let go… From this place you have a higher view, seeing through new eyes to receive and share in the frequency of love. Open your Spiritual eyes. This is a choice. Let go of the mind and emotions, you become available to inspiration beyond what you know. Come present – allow the loving expression of love Light and Sound.

This quote is something to allow in the painting of you life in the earth experience.

“Everyone Discusses my art and pretends to understand, as if it were necessary to understand, when it is simply necessary to love.” Claude Monet

Just enjoy the play of receiving and allowing the letting go in Love.

In Loving Service

Christi

Outer World – Inner Love Flow

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Honesty- Be Present

Anticipating you are going to be seen a certain way. Doing things so you know you are loved. Have you ever noticed when you do these things you have a continued challenge to stay loving in you to you. You find that things are hard to keep up with. This is most likely because you have been living from the outside in. The illusion is a chase. A chase for validation, belonging, being special.

I want to offer an another loving challenge – tool. It involves being honest with yourself and others. Not in any way the harms or hurts. Honesty can be a challenge when you live in fear. the fears and hurts may be running you,, will take courage to be with see, hear, feel and open to loving truth. You are a Soul, there is no wrong, can you witness in loving?

My Loving Challenge is to allow yourself to take time and stop running from yourself, looking to belong…instead come present. There will be discomfort, but this discomfort is calling you to freedom. Come present and allow the thing or things you are avoiding to come into the light, Be present in Loving surrender to how you feel, think, behave and let go in the truth. The truth of what you keep telling yourself about yourself that keeps you in the chase, the outer world validation chase for love. It is an inside job. It does not matter how many people shower you with attention, you are still talking inside to yourself. Be present listen, and come to a place that brings a loving forgiveness for the judgments you carry on yourself and others. Those judgments keep you in separation and fear. More hiding and more sense of being out of control .you are not in control. The Loving Source is, and as you allow yourself to awaken to this through honest surrender in Love to the Light you find yourself with more generosity inside to you and others.

This world will keep you busy. We are here to learn. you are worth it. So take the loving challenge to be honest, be present, and bring the loving grace field awake in surrender to Love, even as you are taken through the discomfort. The other side is amazing. It is the Loving Freedom, that is present in being present within. Be still , walk in the world knowing you are more than this. It is a grand scheme of Divine Love awakening this form home. This Home is in everything, tune – wake to the Love and it will flow in you as you , being supported. There is no limit to this expansion. So there is no limit to what can be brought to the Loving Light. Come Present in you and open to the Divine Song singing you, and bring all that is there, place it at the feet of God. Love is present.

In Loving Service

Christi

My Life is today, not what is behind me.

Leaving each in print of experience behind in loving, allowing all possible creation to be available to me as I take each step. In my step is all. Learning the signs are within and may seem unavailable while leaning into the trust of each step is the challenge and gift.

Crossing over to the sense of oneness and abundance without effort is scary yet exciting. Staying on coarse but allowing the unknown to be available along with your vision of the path. When the open future confronts you keep walking. You are there, you are here.

Be in your loving and you will know the path. You will trust. You will know peace.